Poems

First one to my mom:

मै रोया यहां दूर देस वहां भीग गया तेरा आंचल
तू रात को सोती उठ बैठी हुई तेरे दिल में हलचल
जो इतनी दूर चला आया ये कैसा प्यार तेरा है मां
सब ग़म ऐसे दूर हुए तेरा सर पर हाथ फिरा है मां
जीवन का कैसा खेल है ये मां तुझसे दूर हुआ हूं मै
वक़्त के हाथों की कठपुतली कैसा मजबूर हुआ हूं मै
जब भी मै तन्हा होता हूँ, मां तुझको गले लगाना है
भीड़ बहुत है दुनिया में तेरी बाहों में आना है
जब भी मै ठोकर खाता था मां तूने मुझे उठाया है
थक कर हार नहीं मानूं ये तूने ही समझाया है
मै आज जहां भी पहुंचा हूँ मां तेरे प्यार की शक्ति है
पर पहुंचा मै कितना दूर तू मेरी राहें तकती है
छोती छोटी बातों पर मां मुझको ध्यान तू करती है
चौखट की हर आहट पर मुझको पहचान तू करती है
कैसे बंधन में जकड़ा हूँ दो-चार दिनों आ पाता हूँ
बस देखती रहती है मुझको आँखों में नहीं समाता हूँ
तू चाहती है मुझको रोके मुझे सदा पास रखे अपने
पर भेजती है तू ये कह के जा पूरे कर अपने सपने
अपने सपने भूल के मां तू मेरे सपने जीती है
होठों से मुस्काती है दूरी के आंसू पीती है
बस एक बार तू कह दे मां मै पास तेरे रुक जाऊंगा
गोद में तेरी सर होगा मै वापस कभी ना जाऊंगा



This is all my dear friends:

तू कभी बिछड़ा नहीं और तू मिला भी नहीं
पर मुझे तुझसे कोई शिकवा नहीं ग़िला भी नहीं

तू भले मुझसे ख़फ़ा है और तू दूर भी है
मगर तुझसे ऐ दोस्त दिल को फ़ासिला भी नहीं

मै कैसे दिखलाऊं तुझको दिल की सच्चाई
एक अरसे से तू मुझसे गले मिला भी नहीं

वो एक वक़्त था जब दिल से दिल मिले थे यहाँ
ये एक वक़्त है बातों का सिलसिला भी नहीं

तू मुझे कुछ समझ, मुझको तो तुझसे प्यार है दोस्त
तुझ सा कोई ढ़ूंढ़ा नहीं मिला भी नहीं

मुझे पता है मुझ में लाख कमी है शायद
ये बेरुख़ी मगर दोस्ती का सिला भी नहीं

कभी कभी मुझे लगता है भूल जाऊं तुझे
मगर ये सच है भूलने का हौंसिला भी नहीं

तू खुश रहे ये दुआ तेरी कसम रोज़ करता हूँ
और अपने ग़म का मुझे अब कोई ग़िला भी नहीं

बस इक उम्मीद है तुझ को गले लगाऊं कभी
के वो एहसास मुझे फ़िर कहीं मिला भी नहीं

Found these two poem very interesting.. hope you will also like them (courtesy: Rohit Jain...he wrote them nd tarun..Who shared them)

GOA TRIP : A nice learning experience

We (me and 4 other colleagues from Oracle) planned for Goa trip sometimes back but 3 of them canceled their plan at very last moment so I too decided to cancel it but the other person was very keen to visit Goa. Bus tickets were already booked and as the plans were canceled at very last moment, those were not refunded and he tried his best to convince me to go with him. Ego played a big role here. Actually we were very excited about Goa trip from last one month and in office, some office-mates were jealous about it. So when it got canceled, it was like their dream come true and they wished us HAPPY GOA TRIP while leaving the office. So ego got hurt and and and ....... :(

So we both decided to go Goa. Bus was scheduled at 6.30 and once it was decided it was 7.30pm. We called Buswala and came to know that bus was already 15-16 kms away. It was almost impossible to catch the bus but we decided to give it a try. We called the Buswala in every 5 min and made him to stop the bus for around an hour. When we got in the bus, everyone was staring at us as they wanted to kill us. We reached Goa around 2 hrs late thanks to our madness.

We went to colva beach and took some rest. We hired a bike(bullet). But bike was not in good shape (brake and gear were not functioning properly) so we decided to change it and hire activa. But bikewala was a big time harami, he took 200 bucks more. Also he gave a helmet which was smelling bad and he was not having the other. So we decided to drive without helmet and phir wahi hua jiska dar tha. We were caught by traffic police with two charges: no helmet and no driving license. We were not having enough money to bribe them. So I had to go to ATM which was around 5km away from that place and other person stayed there with them. We ended up with them after wasting around 1 hr and 300 bucks.

Then we moved ahead but soon caught in heavy rain and again had to wait around 1hr. Once we reached Bagha beach it was too late and we decided to go back to hotel and come again tomorrow.

Next day was smooth till evening. We went to a beach and enjoyed the great Indian ocean, came back to the colva. I met with Raka there. Around 7 pm , we moved to Bagha again and and then the worst happened.

We tried Tito’s club but only couples were allowed there. So we tried some other decent club with help of some local guy over there. He ensured that the club is very decent with decent girls. As we entered there after paying 800 bucks outside, one of the prostitutes pulled me near to her to dance. I was totally in shock and scared. We were out in less than 5 minutes.

Then we reached to an open restaurant at Bagha beach and spent time there till 3 am. Our fate was still playing with us; we got our first starter after 3 hrs. But somehow we enjoyed there as music and mass was good there. We went back to our Activa to leave and came to know that fate has given one more slap at our face as someone stole that bad smelling helmet. More to that, there was a fear of being caught by traffic police again. We were back in our hotel by 4.30 am with bad mood. Next morning, we had our breakfast and took the cab for the station. Next day we were in Hyderabad with little fun and lots of learning.

Learning:

• Don’t go in so called decent club if you don’t know about it.
• Plan it proper. Better not to make plans after reaching there.
  
• Don’t stay at Colba beach; I think it’s the worst beach in Goa. I will recommend Bagha beach
• And last but not the least; don’t visit a place like Goa in a group of two unless the other person is not your spouse or gf/bf or you will end up your trip in taking snaps of each other.

DreaM

We use to see dreams with both close eyes and open eyes... And forget them or don’t put our best to fulfill them… by saying:
For closed eyes dream... It was just a dream yaar and
For opened eyes dream… I tried/trying my best but unable to do…or apni bas ki baat nahi hai yaar….
In general cases we don’t do our best and sometimes we even don’t try.
I am not exception at all. Here I will talk about khuli aankho ke sapne (day-dreaming)

During the schooling, I used to see the dreams of topping class or school. During every annual exam, I used to promise myself that “In next class/year, I will study hard from the very first day so that in exams days, there will not be so much burden. This time somehow I should pass but next time I will try my best for being topper…bla bla bla...”
I know, I never tried for that, never put my entire effort on study. Sometimes, I tried to keep that promise for first 4-5 days but never more than that.

Same thing happened in college also. I used to dream of best placement but never worked on my English even I knew that English has pretty good importance in placement as well as my future life/career. Also I never put my exertion in course subjects. It was my gigantic luck that I got two offers even being good for nothing.

And now I am professional, working in Mahindra Satyam and still situation is same. I am seeing some dreams but doing nothing to fulfill them. My mind is blocked these days; I am not able to think/decide what to do except Orkutting. Honestly, the day, when I will start hating orkut, will be my best day. KAAS JALDI SE YE DIN AAYE ND M KUCHH OR KAR SAKUAPNE FUTURE KE LIYE.


By the way my dream is:
I want to work in Google once (time period doesn’t matter)

Mera to chhota sa dream hai :P :P :P .. aapka kya dream hai..
WOULD YOU LIKE TO SHARE YOUR DREAM HERE…..

Luck is ruling

August 2, 2009...Friendship Day:
I got lots of messages with Happy Friendship Day wish, even before I woke up. But perhaps all those wishes are very few to make my day good.
I woke up at around 10 in morning and the first thing I noticed was some kinda smell. And very soon I came to know its LPG gas, our cylinder was leaking, so my day started with repairing that bloody hell……. soon one more blow was given by shopkeeper when he took Rs.50 for just 10 rupees thing.
When I returned with repaired one, I came to know that home owner will be visiting me after some time. My room was too much chaotic. So I tried to make it clean as much as I could and waited for owner without having any food as I was told that soon he will be at flat.
The ‘SOON’ ended at around 1.30 pm and the very first sentence I heard from that side was “You should hire someone for cleaning. We put a lot of money in this house”. It was shocking. My all hard work was in a big pit with a lot of mud on it. I am thinking about the situation if he saw the original one. :P
They told some other shits also and I heard them impassively as I didn’t want to argue with them. They guzzled my head for almost 1.5 hours. Afterwards I was not having any food option except Meggi.
Perhaps those two great blows of the day were not enough. God had prepared one more for me. So when I went to recharge-shop after having my dinner, one more punched me which was I think more powerful than previous two. He wrote my correct phone no. as I told him, but when he was going to recharge, I don’t know what happened to me, I changed one digit in that no. And recharge was successful. I was stunned at that time as I couldn’t understand whether I should laugh on my foolishness or I should feel sad for what happened to my mind.
And then I made one more recharge (this time on correct number) :P
I know you all will laugh and make fun of it (specially the third blow) but I wanted to share it so I did.
I think, they were not my mistakes especially first two, for 3rd one also…it was jus luck.
So luck is ruling …but ya bad luck…. :(
And I think it is becoming more and more powerful now as today (3rd Aug), I got released from the project :( :( :(
Moral of the story:
1. Confirm your phone no. while doing recharge.
2. Be prepare for the next blow after getting one, as it may be harder than the previous one.

I miss college life

Hi guys, I am back again. I don't know, why I cannot write delightful things here. I think there is no amusement in my life or maybe I am not able to find it. You decide after reading this.

Some light on colg life…
1. Scarcity of electricity
2. Scarcity of water as it was dependent of light
3. Poor administration (not poor, I should use harami word here, sab ke sab 1 no. ke harami….paise khane ke alaba un logo ko kuch nahi aata)
4. Poor infrastructure in colg
5. Poor food
6. No place for entertainment (like Movie Theater etc.)
7. But lots of friends with lots of entertainment, without them colg was more than hell and of course no tension, no tension of exams, no tension of future, just gachch raho (don’t take tension, enjoy whatever u have).

Lets move to my present life in Hyderabad….
1. Scarcity of electricity (no fix time of power cut)
2. Scarcity of water ( daily 1-2 hour water supply, early in the morning and late in night…we store some water in buckets so that we can do our routine work…if any of us do not rise early, then u can imagine, how will be the day without water.)
3. Poor food again ( in college I thought that I will be getting better food during job, but I was wrong, u can get good food only at home and if you are getting good food away from home then believe me, you r very lucky)
4. Very less places for entertainment ( 2-3 malls and 3 multiplex, only advance booking can help if you want to see any movie within 1-2 weeks of release)
5. Tension of job ( no one knows, after a month where I will be, in Job or on road roaming here and there in searching for a job…..Thanks to Raju and his gr8 company Satyam).

6. Lots of restrictions like we can not make noise, we can not play music in loud voice, even we can not laugh heartly as those things can disturb our sofisticated neighbours.

When I was in colg, I was fervently waiting for the date of our freedom from the worst college u can imagine where you can see protests for basic amenities like water, electricity etc….waiting for a new place where I will be getting a good food and incessant basic amenities…and also waiting for a new and better life where my pocket money will be increasing.
But now I think I was wrong. Present life is obviously new but not better at any content so far. Pocket money is increased but a lot of tension is also increased related to job and future life, sometimes I see my future in full dark. No good food, even sometimes ‘good’ word is also abandoned. Come to basic amenities then situation is even worse than college in case of water. Colg me jo man karta tha wo karte the, here we are living with lots of restriction, even we can not celebrate b'days here as subah office hota hai and sofisticated logo ko disturb bhi nahi kar sakte....And entertainment, life is dull now, no enthu like colg, hectic schedule of 8 to 8 in weekdays and nothing to do in weekends, kuchh karne ko dil nahi karta.....i remember, in 4th year we used to go out ( temple or market) daily ..ab to bahar ghumne jane ka bhi man nahi karta, no color in life now.
To all colg frnds: hey guys, I miss you a lot.
And now, I think, I miss the colg life which was anyhow better than this professional life.

it seems that life has no color...

It was 11th March 2009, one more day of my life in Satyam which is not so easy to be forgotten. Journey begins here. As usual at 6.30 am, my alarm helped me to wake up. At 8.20 am, I boarded the bus and at 9.20, I was in office. I had my lunch at 2pm. At 6.30, I left the office and boarded the bus and at 8.30 pm, I was at my room as usual. Everything was looking as usual but I was feeling something missing that day. I was working in office but my soul was roaming somewhere else. I was having the lunch but there was no hunger that day. I was having lots of officemates working around me and talking to me but I was feeling alone that day.
Only one unusual thing, which made the entire usual things unusual, was…it was ‘HOLI’ (the festival of colors)….no no... I should say it was the first Holi of my life without colors, lack of sweets and lack of MASTI (joy).
We could not celebrate Holi this year due to the great decision of satyam officers of not giving leave that day. We could not enjoy special food. We could not tear the cloths of each other. We could not play with mud and water. The only thing, we could do, was to recall the sweet memories of our previous celebrations….

Comparison is the thing which makes us unsatisfied and unhappy…

Some days back, I got a mail in which there was a way to be satisfied by comparing our life with the worse one….and then I tried to collect my life first….

I am from Gangapur City, a town; I don’t know why it has city in its name. I did my schooling from three schools. 1to 5 from Adarsh Vidhya Mandir, famous for its discipline..... 6 to 8 from Kapoor School, good for nothing, guys study here because they have fewer options……….and 9 to 12 from Govt. Sr. Sec School, the biggest school in the whole town and nearby area. Up to 5th, schooling was ok. But after that I didn’t find anything good in life. In Kapoor School, there was no play ground to play, we were having some streets where limited no. of games can be played, we were not taught any thing extra than our course….no quiz….no game.. kinda thing…and the result…I have no column of extra curriculum activities in my resume….even i appreciate the contribution of my next school in this blank space of extra curriculum activity column. In Govt. Sr. Sec. School….3 playgrounds with 6-7 or even more teams wishing to use them….. We were not having desks to sit in class room….we had to sit on floor…on carpet of cloths….sometimes that was also missing….worse thing, fans were not available for us in the classes. We were not having any knowledge of what to do in future. I did choose maths in 11th not because I wanted to become an engineer, but the reason was…I got 100% marks in math. I did not know any thing about pre engineering exams before going to Kota. I went there for preparation of RPET then I came to know there is something AIEEE. After 1 year preparation, I got 7321 all India rank. I was really very disappointed but only one who was responsible for that bad result was me and only me. Whatever, I got NIT Jamshedpur, civil. I heard a lot about college life from relatives and television… I was having lots of expectation from colg…I thought I will enjoy the things in college which I missed in school… but then the worst happened… We were having fans in classroom but electricity was missing. You will not find drinking water in the whole college campus. I did not get those basic stuffs how could I expect something special from the college. This college shattered my expectation and the four most important and fervent years of my life. And now, I am in Satyam and again expecting something good in life.

I found only bad things in my life. Some people say that I don’t want to see good things in my life by asking me to compare my self with a guy who is from a village and who don’t have any school in his near by area or who don’t have money to join any school…then my question to those guys is….why I should not compare my self with a city guy or a rich guy.

I really don’t understand one thing….why these people ask us to compare with ourselves with someone who is in worse condition….if they want to tell us the way to be satisfied then why they forget that one question can arise in our mind that why we r not comparing ourselves with someone who is in better condition…and that will make us more unsatisfied and unhappy.

I found only bad things of my schools and college because I compared them with some other institutes. I think this comparison thing can give us only dissatisfaction as a common man’s comportment is to compare himself with the better one not with the worse. He may feel some pity for them while comparing his life with worse ones but that is not satisfaction.